Huis Clos

Oct. 20th, 2004 09:13 am
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This morning, I was thinking about my situation.  Then I remembered a play I read in college by Sartre. It's called Huis Clos or No Exit in English.  The play, in it's simplest form, is about a group of people stuck in a room.  Through conversation they find out each other's darkest secret and basically get on each other's nerves in the worst way.  It turns out that they are in Hell.  That most people think of their idea of Hell being fire and brimstone and a red guy with horns.  But in all actuality it is a norm/typical situation that one may find him/herself in.  The only difference is that in the play, you can't leave.  So it's about how we each create our own personal Hell and it's a tailored fit for your own personal needs.

I have decided that this...is my own personal hell.  The difference is that I know I can get out of it. I would like to look for a job now as I am on the computer all day, but I am sure people here would frown upon that. :) It'll get better. I just need to be proactive again vs. wallowing in my self-pity.

Funny moment from last night. I'm sitting on a couch talking to V and thecat and I mentioned that my butt was no longer numb. Thecat shoots a look at V and I said, "he had absolutely nothing to do with my butt being numb!"

Good part of today: loud people do not come in till 12. woohoo!! Wednesday and Thursdays are good days at work. :)

Bad part: I passed Niki on the expressway. She was in a minor accident. Her and her car are fine, but she was late for work.  I was driving by saying hey that looks like...Fuck that is Niki. But I called her and all is well with the world.

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So V asked me to take a small part in his production of Mr. Bivins. So I asked him to send it to me today. He did, and yeah...it's very V. As I said to him, "If I didn't know you and have some type of undertanding of your thought processes, I would be horrified. Instead, I laughed myself silly."

Anyone else wanting to be happily horrified can come to a read through on Oct 25th at 8 pm. If you're interested let me know cause I don't have the rest of the details in front of me.

Starting to feel better. So I am hoping that my cold will not turn into either a sinus infection or bronchitis like it was starting to. Keeping my fingers crossed on that one.
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So I decided I would finally jump on the LiveJournal Bandwagon. What can I say, I'm a follower when I want to be. I was actually invited to do this a long time ago, but I guess I was busy or something or didn't see why I should post my inner most thoughts or whatever it is that comes to my mind. Now, after being somewhat of a voyeur for the last week or two, I decided I should join so you can peer into the inner workings of my brain. And I hate to disappoint, but not much is going on. Well there is plenty going on, but it's all old stuff that I am almost done processing and moving on with. In the last month or so, I've been having this John Cusack in High Fidelity moment. It's just been somewhat lonely, so I thought I would get in contact with those I have fooled around with at some occasion. I actually did find one on LJ. That was an interesting experience for me because I found out that he got married in June. I am happy for him, because he does deserve to be happy. He's one of the nicer guys I've dated/fooled around with. However, it was also a bizzare situation for me as that means that he and I can never date or fool around again. That's probably a good thing, but it was such a bizzare thing. Even though I was never in love with him, I always wanted to be if that makes sense, so it's all good. Then I found another one on Friendster. I emailed him to say hi as I haven't talked to him in 6 years. He added me as a friend on friendster, but never actually responded to my email. I hope that he is happy too. At this point, I think I've pretty much worked that out of my system.

Now, I will be starting my new job on Monday and that is giving me a ton of stress as well. I'm living in Ypsi and the job is in Farmington Hills. It's going to be a somewhat unpleasant drive. It's also a real job and stuff and that's spooky. This will be 2nd real job. Sure I've done lots of work for many companies before, but this is my first real job post college. It's spooky. Plus I need to be very careful. Today is the day that my insurance runs out. I will not have medical & dental insurance until January. Please do not run over me in a bus. :)

I do have a small CVS rant though. Near my parents they are building a new strip mall, which is annoying in and of itself. The first thing going in there is a CVS. The point between the new one going up and the next one near my parents is exactly 1 mile! Then passing the one near my parents while driving  [livejournal.com profile] schmise  home, the next CVS is 1.1 mile. Explain to me why we need 3 CVS's that close to each other??????

So that's it for today and my first post.  Please be patient while I learn things about this that I don't know  yet. :)[profile]

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