My Voice...

So yesterday was fun. I basically went from bed, to bathroom, to bed from 2 a.m. until 5:00 p.m. when I got up, showered, drank water and tea, and wondered what I was going to do. At this point, I don't necessarily feel "sick", but I couldn't speak. That, I must say, I was probably one of the WORST feelings in the entire world. Not being able to express myself in words is horrible. It is also a skill that I realize I have taken for granted. I couldn't even call anyone to tell them how I was feeling. I don't have text on my phone and not everyone is online during the weekend. aerospcgrl sent me an IM, so I was able to let her know what was going on, so she helped me at the merchandise table. Then I went to the drug store to get better drugs and the cashier was trying to engage me in conversation and all I could do was smile and shake my head. Heading over to Wendy's to grab a bite to eat because I hadn't eaten all day and I had to go inside because what little voice I did have would not carry over the drive thru window. Then walking the streets of Ann Arbor as people are speaking to each other and OS fans asking for the nearest bar, I couldn't say anything. It's crazy. Today feels very much the same. It really makes me want to learn ASL. At least then I could communicate with a few for sure. eeks I say! I think I've slept till I can't sleep any more and I still feel like 7 layers of arse.

And now I have chores to get done, so I go now.... :)

I want nothing more....

than to pick up the phone can call someone.

Merde! I hate this no voice thing. It's very frustrating.

I'm trying to decide whether or not to go to work tomorrow. Technically I was told I wasn't going to be on the phones, so I do not really need to speak, but if Monday is anything like Friday I will. Although if I am not working I will go stir crazy and mad. I can't be locked up at home with nothing to do. I barely did anything today and it drove me nuts! However, the only thing I "need" to do is go shopping for Christmas and I can't afford to do that until Friday when I get paid. Jesu Crist!

AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

Sorry, I don't mean to whine but this day has turned into a rather emotionally twitchy kind of day. Lots of realizations have come to the surface and although interesting, not very happy about them. :)

***EDIT*** I managed about 10 minutes of conversation tonight. Yes folks that is correct. My voice held up for a good 10 minutes. Good thing I can talk fast when I have a voice.