Moral of the Story...

Be happy for what you do have and stop lamenting on that which you do not have.

In the meantime work towards obtain that which you want being careful to decide if that is what you actually want vs what you think you want.

There is way too much thinking involved in that and I'd hate to die in a tragic overthinking accident.

And as I've been in a bad place the last few days, I apologize to those I've offended and to those who wish I would offend. :)